Hur Hur, so my grandpa is probably dying >: Hes like my hero. But I can't let myself get all sick from the thought of loosing him. I have to stay focused.

My mom was exposed to the H1N1 virus (swine flu) but neither of us contracted it. (thank god)I was still recovering from my current cold and have midterms. My stupid form and space box is due tommorow. But...I don't really care its so shity.


POSITIVE NEWS:

8D My ears are healing well and all the anger got me into BLACK METAL/ DEATHCORE music again <3

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(female screamers are so hot)
[link] (XD yes I REALLY LISTEN TO THE SHIT)
[link] (D8 I LOVE THIS VIDEO)

PSYCLON NINE ARE MY GODS: worshipppp themmmmmmmmmmn (they are industrial not Black Metal XD; )
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CRWN THY FRNICTARRRRR
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CRADEL OF FILTH PLEASE-
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XD I SAW THEM IN CONCERT AND THREW MY NECK OUT FOR 3 MONTHS!!!

|D I'd fuck Danny if he was FUCKING TALLER! (Im taller than him <--5'5)

On my note of music? What do you all think of heavy rock?

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Mnn, before I adress whats on my mind I wanted to blab about how I am. I have a cold currently and when I say cold I mean night fevers and a slight cough. (I got it from daniel) Bastard shared his ice cream with me and was so kind as to inform me he was ill AFTER I bit into it. Durp. Huurr. Genious (on my part).

Besides that everyone in my family is fucking sick as hell I swear to god. My Grandfather is on oxygen, My uncle is in the hospital, my cousin has cervical cancer, and my father has hyper tension (high blood pressure). My mom also VANISHED for a day last week and I had to stay home, SEARCHING FOR HER. There was a happy ending which is all that matters.

But in general I'm okay, OTIS is kicking my ass and raping me horribly from behind. And it is one of those rapes where its so terrible you just want to let the mother fucker finish, just so you can sleep...yes it is one of those.

POSITIVE NEWS:

I got my ears peirced. My mother did it for me with a potato, alcohol, and a needel. Then she simply fucked the bloody wound with a gold stud and i've been peachy ever since. <3 I'm so happy that I fannaly got it done. Now I just need my industrial and a few more in each ear. I really want snake bites cause I think they would be sexy as fuck on me but, like I couldn't handel it...hurrrr thats about it.

Okay, [link] has been talking a lot about creationist and Christians. Ironically she doesn’t believe in a higher power and I do. However we both get along JUST finnnneee on the topic. Now, i'm not fanatic on admitting my religion but I won't hide it from anyone. I believe in God because of particular (divine or otherwise) events in my life that BIAS my opinion. However, I can't fucking stand creationist or fanatics in GENERAL. Please, I have gone to Christian/catholic schools all my life. I like religion I think it is really interesting. But I find it more interesting this obnoxious and ignorant (typically American) Christian constantly force the regurgitation of predigested ideals in the faces of non-believers. It’s always the same thing:

Satan
Creation
Politics

In general anything that NO one should be talking about, they talk about. Not even educated either, it is this typical STUPID and mostly hysterical, dramatic, exagerated insanity that is common to American-Christians. Hail the country of prudes.

Respectably, they have a right to their beliefs about anything here in America, but "God" they make this country look huRRR Derrr Durp derr~ For example, At Otis there is a girl who is a slob. She's a vile pig and when her ROOMMATES told her she must vacate- She proclaimed "Satan has turned you against me"... Oh? Really? Because I'm vaguely positive that Satan impels his demons to run havoc on people. Oh "God" Save me from these Satan worshipers, who CLEAN and take care of their home... while I wallow in my own filth? Very mature. Or they believe that tarot and astrology are WITCH CRAFT and aligned with DARK FORCES. When in reality if you’re a Christian, you believe God made everything, including the stars. As well, IF they were REAL Christians they would understand that man is FLAWED and "God" loves them anyway. Instead of EXILING THEM TO THE DEEPEST PITS OF HELL. It is frankly assumed that if you do not "accept" Jesus as your lord and savior. You can't get into heaven. I have no IDEA where this go blown into "Ya'll GONNA BURN IN HELL" "YOUR UNCLEAN and SATAN IS GONNA GET YA" various other highly amusing dramatic sentiments. I find it hilarious Christians fear him when in reality Lucifer (which is his real name, Satan is a Greek term used by the Catholic Church to mock the idealism of the devil, this is red horned pitch fork imagery we are all so familiar with) was an arch angel. At that he was the most beautiful angel, and God LOVED him so much he let him betray him.

Also on this note I’d like to address Satanism, which worships no god other than the primitive carnal desires of the human essence. Merely it detests the control placed on by organized religion so in rebellion it labeled itself "Satanism” as a protest against the church.

BETTER YET some feel the need to destroy dinosaurs for the youth. Telling them "Oh God made the dinosaurs too in those 7 days, God is almighty. So, as well isn't he capable of making the illusion of time?” OKAY.....I ONLY KNOW THIS because I was TAUGHT it in school. yes they tried to convince me the world was made in 7 days at age 6 and EVEN then I realized how asinine it was. Imagine a poofy headed young sin with a lip twitch "you’re telling me that millions of years of evolution were simply a pimple on the ass of time?...cause of GOD?!" ...frankly I was horrified, and found Godzilla (a radioactive super lizard) more believable. I think you should believe what ever the hell you want. But... don't be fucking ignorant and ignore FACTS. >: Science is lies...And even if you are Christian you should acknowledge that your ”God” is so wonderful he made science. He made his creations so well that we humans could figure out how simple things really are. Down to our body make up and cellular compositions. (and anyone who is going to try and tell me humans are made by god because we are so smart, please go read Encyclopedia Dramatica or 4chan for 5 minutes. then come argue with me.)

LASTLY Politics, this group is SO notorious for intertwining religious belief and political biases. Especially in context to the Iraq war. The one Single biggest annoyance to me in this aspect. Is when red neck hillbillies say "I hate Muslims, god bless Jesus.”

For all of you who don't know SHIT about religion.... *sigh*

THEY WORSHIP THE SAME GOD

How totally fucking ignorant that you detest a people who in fundamentals ARE JUST LIKE YOU. Conservative, prude, God fearing ignorant, abused people. It infuriates me that people are that dumb. Not to mention all the crap with abortion, and blah blah blah, it’s against god. It doesn’t say anywhere not to rip a fetus out of your vagina. I understand it is considered wrong (and don't get me wrong I think it’s nasty and scary). But what can one lunatic crack pot DO?! You’re just going to give yourself high blood pressure, and that vein in your forehead will pop and look all sorts of nasty from frustration. Why get so WORKED up over nothing at all...fucking wing nuts. Once in elementary the woman directing traffic was spewing "God bless us all, George W. Bush is here to fulfill the word of the father, and live in his father’s legacy! It is a sign!” .....8 years later...

I hope she bit her tongue...

In conclusion FUCK AMERICA, FUCK THE WING NUTS, ya'll can suck mah dick. Because I don't give half a rat’s ass what religion you’re in. Or what arguments you have against what I just said because I can easily beat anyone down, and its the internet. I have Catholicism and Christianity HAMMER fucked into my head...good luck if you really want to try. I really would like you to try and have you argue with me though. It will not work but you can try. You can try and tell me I'm not Christain, cause well I guess I am not. I respect my creator and revolt against any radical branches off of those ideals. Anyone can say something is a lie, and people need to remember that. So, if you want to attempt and you so much as assume that I believe in the "big bang" or other cliches. I'm just going to laugh at you cause you proved my point on being ignorant.

Someone (I know it) is going to say, your not respecting my religion, okay well I will respect it when you respect my intelligence ...fin

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Edit: Here are the actual notes XD and I have a link to the girls journal now.
Okay, so today I'm working in the library on my reading and working things. (Note you I’ve had a terrible week from HELL). I get a note from initially I was excited to work. So I told Snuffen (lol I tell her everything). To which she was like,

NO! DON'T! LOOK!

She sent me a link to another artist journal. To which she explained how she had been commissioned to work for the website (by him in particular), and was never paid for some of her work. The work they did purchase from her was "claimed" (he wanted the copyrights) for his organization, to which she said they were her ideas; he couldn’t own them. ([link]). So, apparently he’s been noting everyone and their grandmother to come work for him...... XD; all of you guys probably have no idea how "well" I deal with drama....cause it's not nice at all. I sent him a note back OUTLING how INSULTED I was by his offer, bluntly stating that I wanted nothing to do with a liar, and a thief in respect to his business. I told him to leave ME and ALL of my watchers out of his little scam or I would report him for harassing me.

.....well 5 minutes go by and I get a note rambling on an on about how RUDE I am and Ill prepared for the business world. As well I got a RANDOM note from (I guess one of his friends?). Apparently they felt the need to send me a one line note saying..."LOL you insulted artists"......Like really....REALLY?! You’re claiming to be a business and you sick a CHICK on me who has NOTHING to do with this. Please, doesn’t fucking insult me with this bullshit ...by the way,it is a GREAT idea to sick one of your friends...on someone when they hurt your feelings. It makes you totally look like a mature, intelligent, and responsible business man...PREPED and ready to take the economy by the horns and kick it in the face. (....)

Anyway I replied to both...nicely (piff)...explaining how "guilty" I was that I spoke my mind on the internet. (XD; ) More and more I find myself AMAZED that people think they can escape this social networking thing. His second note was so childish, telling me I DIDNT KNOW HIM! Gasp...no I don't because I don't care XD; you’re some random person. ON DEVIANT ART! I hate shit like this; it pisses me off so bad that people can't handle their own shit. I told him not to COMPLAIN that I found abundant amounts of POOR information on him. If he was so upset about his internal affairs he should hire a PR representative instead of more artists. ALSO I thought it was nice he told me how much his artists make (even though I never mentioned pay in my note?). This only validated how guilty he was.

I'm not bragging that I did any of this, I’m telling my side of this random bullshit. I DON'T want anyone I am affiliated with or I'm friends with wrapped up in this sort of shit.
I don't think it's fun. I just think its fucking FUNNY how infantile people are.

If he notes you...tell him sin told you "he can go fucking suck my dick".

HERE ARE THE CONVO'S

This might as well be a section in my journal now. Why not. OTISSSS is incredible, I love my classes, and I’ve already bonded with my section of class mates. I enjoy school so deeply it’s ridiculous. Do not get me wrong I am swamped by homework. The work load is astronomical-I've been working all week on the projects due for next week and frankly i'm tired. Yet, refreshed by the challenge! I want to BE the best in my class; I am not going to do half assed work anymore. I want to fucking destroy this school with my talents.

I have to say life drawing is my favorite. OMG PENIS! lol yeah I saw a nude model. No he didn't get a boner, yes he had a TON of pubic hair, and YES he was fairly attractive and...NO I didn't gawk at his man bit. It was just a man bit...anyway. I loved it and I’ve already started using what I learned in my style and my art is going to change so much. I'm already looking at my old work and freaking out. gack...

Okay no, seriously commissions are still available. The waiting time is longer than previous but I AM DOING THEM!

also I was wondering if you guys would buy avatars or stamps? hurm?

I START tommorow. I know its really late, and blah blah blah. XD but...im really happy and excited as fuck.

SO do you, THINK ITS BAD?! that I haven't ordered my books yet?! ehehe....or don't have any of my supplies?
XD;; I do. But hurm i'm looking so badly forward to it. I have a friend allready going there (Sandy) and I made friends at orintation. (only cause I was so outgoing you couldn't NOT know who I was). I met a fellow dark person, and someone who understood my dislike for honkeys. |D;;; <3 They were great


COMISH ME!

8D ISNT IT HOT?! I drew it!